当你拥有全世界时，仿佛你都不缺任何东西。
当你在夜深人静时，你却发现你遗失了你的心。
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舒芙礼
11 years ago
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
人生
当你对生活感到失望时，你失去了生气
当你对工作感到烦闷时，你失去了目标
当你对人生感到底落时，你失去了方向
但是，
当我找到希望时，我又重有了朝气
当我找到目标时，我又重有了机会
当我找到出路时，我又重有了曦光
起起落落本就是人生一部份
就因为这起起落落而造就成今天的自己
不完美，也不缺陷
当我回头看，这一路走来
都是自己一步一脚印走出来的路
那完完全全属于自己的人生 。
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当你对工作感到烦闷时，你失去了目标
当你对人生感到底落时，你失去了方向
但是，
当我找到希望时，我又重有了朝气
当我找到目标时，我又重有了机会
当我找到出路时，我又重有了曦光
起起落落本就是人生一部份
就因为这起起落落而造就成今天的自己
不完美，也不缺陷
当我回头看，这一路走来
都是自己一步一脚印走出来的路
那完完全全属于自己的人生 。
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Monday, July 28, 2008
Colors
I used to force you to ask me what my favorite color is. And after you repeated my question I will ask you back what do you think my favorite color is?Ended up you cracked your head and lot of colors being guessed.
Finally and finally I am happy and enough of tortured you with your unsatisfactory answers I happily announced that I don’t have any favorite colors and there you will showed me your “chicken” face. ^_^ It always made me laughed.
I am greedy. I love almost all the soft colors.
Soft pink, soft blue, soft green, soft purple…imagine when all the soft colors combine, it will just made me melt. It will also turn me back to the little girl whom I used to wonder in my dreamland. Soft colors made me gone crazy, because it will lead me to grab everything back and put in my own room.
Do you still remember what my favorite color is?
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Finally and finally I am happy and enough of tortured you with your unsatisfactory answers I happily announced that I don’t have any favorite colors and there you will showed me your “chicken” face. ^_^ It always made me laughed.
I am greedy. I love almost all the soft colors.
Soft pink, soft blue, soft green, soft purple…imagine when all the soft colors combine, it will just made me melt. It will also turn me back to the little girl whom I used to wonder in my dreamland. Soft colors made me gone crazy, because it will lead me to grab everything back and put in my own room.
Do you still remember what my favorite color is?
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Saturday, July 26, 2008
Slideshow
Finally and finally my slideshow is up !
Would like to invite you all to see my world as I see through my eyes.
Probably it’s not up to any standard, but it just some humble pieces from me.
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Would like to invite you all to see my world as I see through my eyes.
Probably it’s not up to any standard, but it just some humble pieces from me.
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Friday, July 25, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Companion
Love the feeling to be back at home.
This trip itself was filled with laughter, joy, fun, totally relaxes while having mom’s cooking and most importantly was the companion of you gals whom I always treasured with my heart. This time itself it helped me to look back the half decade of our life spend together. It's not like I dont enjoy myself each time I went back but probably I felt the most at this trip due to some stress I have been having over here.
We had fun at beach, big splendor seafood dinner, drinking party, more food and more drink. As usual we always caught attention for our loud loud laugh. We do worried that those aunties and uncles going to complain to our parents about us (But all of our parents know it wells, we gone out of control when we all gathered together) so fun goes on with all the jokes and laughter.
After all these years we still behave the same old us. Talk loud as if we are the only group of people around, laugh extremely loud at our own jokes, drink like nobody business and enjoy our food to the maximum. And of course the joyful moment was when we went back to our secondary school. The place that we always proud of and also the place who trained us to be who we are today. Girl school doesn’t train us to be a gentle lady who speak softly (none of us on the list behave that way uh?) but our dearest principal sister did drill and trained us to be a tough and independent woman. Under the sun for few hours, heavy lifting work, clear the bush, open a thrill behind the jungle, fixing, hammering and etc. Sewing always seems like a problem for us, somehow we are better in handling a hammer rather than a needle. Well that’s how those experiences form us to be who we are today. Gals, I am always proud with you all.
I am not sure how’s life going to be without the existence of you all. One thing for sure, every time I looked back, it always filled up with laughter and sweet memories. Perhaps we should plan a big grand gathering next year where every one of us will officially turn 30. A great excuse to celebrate for all the soon coming aunties.
Love you all dearly with my heart.
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Sunday, July 20, 2008
Immoral
Get to know some “bad” news recently that caught me real wonder. Friend involved in a not so healthy relationship, and that’s what we called third party.
All the while I am not a strong believer of marriage.
I don’t believe the promise that made in front of god.
I don’t believe in forever as I am too old to believe the fantasy.
I wonder whether “loyalty” still exists in this world that full of seduction or temptation.
All these incidents proof that what I don’t believe in are somehow accurate at some points.
She told me she is not a young girl who got cheated or being fools by married man. She knows it well what is she doing and what is she looking for. She doesn’t ask for forever or to demand any promise from him. She is looking for what she feels happy at this current period and it obviously sounds selfish. She said we all human are selfish when come to own feelings and I don’t deny that. I know her pretty well, she always a strong and smart woman who knows what she wants in life. Morally, she knows clearly that she do wrong but mentally she need someone to be there and he looks right for her at this time.
I keep myself thinking for the whole conversation. I understand well that she told me bout it is not to ask my opinion about the relationship but she thinks I should know what’s going on in her life. She knows it well what is wrong and I don’t think she need more comments about it. She made decision to choose this path, and both of us clearly know this relationship doesn’t lead to anywhere. As a close friend of hers, probably you think I should stop her or say something. But I know her pretty well, she doesn’t need all those from me. I am not saying that I am being supportive with her in this relationship or being opposed to it. I keep myself neutral and when she finally makes her final move, she will always know where to look for me. I’ve always amazed with her recovery status, that’s why I never worried bout her.
I clearly understand that being selfish at our own always hurts innocent people. I am wondering how many couples out there who sworn on their vow are really mean what they swear. Or the vow it just a formality procedure for the process. I am confused. Why force yourself to swear on the vow and you clearly understand that you don’t mean it. Caught in this situation, morally we all know its wrong its hell and its bad but we just can’t resist to say no. Thousand of excuses are given just to feel better for all the guilt. But we all clearly understand that it never help and it hurts more.
Towards the years, meaning of marriage got faded and I think I have my own valid reason not to believe in it.
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All the while I am not a strong believer of marriage.
I don’t believe the promise that made in front of god.
I don’t believe in forever as I am too old to believe the fantasy.
I wonder whether “loyalty” still exists in this world that full of seduction or temptation.
All these incidents proof that what I don’t believe in are somehow accurate at some points.
She told me she is not a young girl who got cheated or being fools by married man. She knows it well what is she doing and what is she looking for. She doesn’t ask for forever or to demand any promise from him. She is looking for what she feels happy at this current period and it obviously sounds selfish. She said we all human are selfish when come to own feelings and I don’t deny that. I know her pretty well, she always a strong and smart woman who knows what she wants in life. Morally, she knows clearly that she do wrong but mentally she need someone to be there and he looks right for her at this time.
I keep myself thinking for the whole conversation. I understand well that she told me bout it is not to ask my opinion about the relationship but she thinks I should know what’s going on in her life. She knows it well what is wrong and I don’t think she need more comments about it. She made decision to choose this path, and both of us clearly know this relationship doesn’t lead to anywhere. As a close friend of hers, probably you think I should stop her or say something. But I know her pretty well, she doesn’t need all those from me. I am not saying that I am being supportive with her in this relationship or being opposed to it. I keep myself neutral and when she finally makes her final move, she will always know where to look for me. I’ve always amazed with her recovery status, that’s why I never worried bout her.
I clearly understand that being selfish at our own always hurts innocent people. I am wondering how many couples out there who sworn on their vow are really mean what they swear. Or the vow it just a formality procedure for the process. I am confused. Why force yourself to swear on the vow and you clearly understand that you don’t mean it. Caught in this situation, morally we all know its wrong its hell and its bad but we just can’t resist to say no. Thousand of excuses are given just to feel better for all the guilt. But we all clearly understand that it never help and it hurts more.
Towards the years, meaning of marriage got faded and I think I have my own valid reason not to believe in it.
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Friday, July 18, 2008
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
回家
天比想象中的还要蔚蓝
云比想象中的还要轻浮
在千万高方的高空中
兴奋的感觉满满在心上
开心的感觉围绕着自己
想念着妈妈香香的饭
想念着爸爸的大肚腩
想念着永远舒服的家
想念着家里的钢琴
想念着二十年的老友
想家，想爸，想妈，想着一班老友
家。。。就在两个小时后。
我回家了!!!!!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Relax
Don’t ask me where am I..
I just back to my heaven…
Don’t wake me up as I am enjoying the
Blue blue sky.
Orange orange sunset.
White white cloud.
Yellow yellow sunrise.
I will be back to my life soon..
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Friday, July 11, 2008
Sunshine
I used to believe in fairy tales,
I used to be a believer of “forever”,
U made me believe that I am the only one.
But you are also the one who destroyed all my beliefs.
You asked for my hand as you will be my side whenever I need you.
You asked for my heart as you will be there for me for forever.
You asked for my soul as you will care for it as it’s the only precious one.
Hand touched you,
Heart gave to you,
Soul surrendered to you.
And I left nothing for myself…
Never ever think that you will let go of my hand.
Never ever think that you will break my heart.
Never ever think that you will leave my soul right behind.
And the truth is you already did
I trusted you
I have faith with you
I am confidence with you
And now I bear the consequences of my naïve ness.
I am a fool for you
I am a dumb for you
I am just a passed time for you
Tell me the truth don’t let me drowning like a fool.
Tell me what’s going on don’t let me lost in the so called "fantasy".
Please return me that some leftover pride of myself.
I just got to use my head lead me back on track.
I believe I can and I will be one...
P/S: You know well this is especially for you. Be strong and sunhine will always be there after the rain.
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I used to be a believer of “forever”,
U made me believe that I am the only one.
But you are also the one who destroyed all my beliefs.
You asked for my hand as you will be my side whenever I need you.
You asked for my heart as you will be there for me for forever.
You asked for my soul as you will care for it as it’s the only precious one.
Hand touched you,
Heart gave to you,
Soul surrendered to you.
And I left nothing for myself…
Never ever think that you will let go of my hand.
Never ever think that you will break my heart.
Never ever think that you will leave my soul right behind.
And the truth is you already did
I trusted you
I have faith with you
I am confidence with you
And now I bear the consequences of my naïve ness.
I am a fool for you
I am a dumb for you
I am just a passed time for you
Tell me the truth don’t let me drowning like a fool.
Tell me what’s going on don’t let me lost in the so called "fantasy".
Please return me that some leftover pride of myself.
I just got to use my head lead me back on track.
I believe I can and I will be one...
P/S: You know well this is especially for you. Be strong and sunhine will always be there after the rain.
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Thursday, July 10, 2008
Indulge
Finally, I am able to breathe a little.
Finally, I am able to start wondering where’s my life has gone.
Finally and finally, I am able to sit right here peacefully to lost myself in my own tiny world.
Life has been drowning with work and I have lost myself in between.
During that hectic period, my soul was being invaded.
Got addicted with caffeine,
Got insane with Jazz music,
Even alcohol consumption is increasing greatly.
Addiction doesn’t sounds as evil as I always thought.
It actually let me found some great things in life which I have bypassed it.
Found myself drowning into great vocal with the companion of wine.
Friends whom share the same preference as me fall so much in love with all these addictions.
Work never finished as I wish, Life never stopped as I hope it will
But during the depression moment I found lights that accompany me throughout the whole depressing journey.
Life goes on, works goes on too but I know in future, caffeine, jazz and alcohol will be in my life to play a big role.
I know I can count on caffeine to ease my nerve.
I know I can rely on Jazz to calm my soul.
And of course I know well that alcohol able to relax my mind.
I am grateful with all these new indulges.
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Finally, I am able to start wondering where’s my life has gone.
Finally and finally, I am able to sit right here peacefully to lost myself in my own tiny world.
Life has been drowning with work and I have lost myself in between.
During that hectic period, my soul was being invaded.
Got addicted with caffeine,
Got insane with Jazz music,
Even alcohol consumption is increasing greatly.
Addiction doesn’t sounds as evil as I always thought.
It actually let me found some great things in life which I have bypassed it.
Found myself drowning into great vocal with the companion of wine.
Friends whom share the same preference as me fall so much in love with all these addictions.
Work never finished as I wish, Life never stopped as I hope it will
But during the depression moment I found lights that accompany me throughout the whole depressing journey.
Life goes on, works goes on too but I know in future, caffeine, jazz and alcohol will be in my life to play a big role.
I know I can count on caffeine to ease my nerve.
I know I can rely on Jazz to calm my soul.
And of course I know well that alcohol able to relax my mind.
I am grateful with all these new indulges.
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Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Craps
Dearest “raw data”,
I never like you nor dislike you. Feelings towards you are contradicted.
Is that what we called love and hate feelings? If so, that really ain’t an easy relationship I am having.
Whenever I see you, I always want to run away from you. But reality I can’t! Got to sit right tight with you to start a long and pain ass journey. Beside that you are the sources of my living.
Sometimes I wish you always appear as my clean data. At least I will be appreciating just to convert you into figures and percentages. But it caught me wonder whether how significance the figures are? Is the percentage are valid? How is it going to affect the brand awareness? Thousands of thousands of questions keep questioning me back. Validity? Consistency? Quota? ……
To my beloved readers who reading this, I am pretty much appreciate that you all are actually reading this. I am just writing craps in a working afternoon where my alcohol level is par with my caffeine level.
Forgive me!
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I never like you nor dislike you. Feelings towards you are contradicted.
Is that what we called love and hate feelings? If so, that really ain’t an easy relationship I am having.
Whenever I see you, I always want to run away from you. But reality I can’t! Got to sit right tight with you to start a long and pain ass journey. Beside that you are the sources of my living.
Sometimes I wish you always appear as my clean data. At least I will be appreciating just to convert you into figures and percentages. But it caught me wonder whether how significance the figures are? Is the percentage are valid? How is it going to affect the brand awareness? Thousands of thousands of questions keep questioning me back. Validity? Consistency? Quota? ……
To my beloved readers who reading this, I am pretty much appreciate that you all are actually reading this. I am just writing craps in a working afternoon where my alcohol level is par with my caffeine level.
Forgive me!
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Sunday, July 6, 2008
音乐
城市还是热闹的，脚步还是匆忙的，时间还是不够的，周围的人还是奔波的；
我的心情还是浮躁的。
都不要紧，
生活还是继续，工作还是继续，品酒的感觉还是继续，音乐还是继续，
让听觉享受音乐带来的安抚，让心静静的在回真实自己。
音乐带出埋藏在心底已久的情感，是幻想，是迷茫，是矛盾，是感性
柔柔的音律溶入进我呼吸的空气里，忘却了时间，忘却了现实，却找回埋藏已久的感性。
这个夜晚属于酒，属于音乐，属于自己，属于怀念，属于沉醉。
干了，这个夜晚。。。
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我的心情还是浮躁的。
都不要紧，
生活还是继续，工作还是继续，品酒的感觉还是继续，音乐还是继续，
让听觉享受音乐带来的安抚，让心静静的在回真实自己。
音乐带出埋藏在心底已久的情感，是幻想，是迷茫，是矛盾，是感性
柔柔的音律溶入进我呼吸的空气里，忘却了时间，忘却了现实，却找回埋藏已久的感性。
这个夜晚属于酒，属于音乐，属于自己，属于怀念，属于沉醉。
干了，这个夜晚。。。
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享受
喜欢一个人静静的坐在我乱乱的书桌对着电脑
喜欢一个人静静的呆在厅里看书面对着高速公路
喜欢一个人坐在房里闭上眼睛听着我最爱的音乐
喜欢一个人在不用工作的早上来杯我最爱的热可可
一个人并不寂寞，一个人可以很自由
一个人并不孤单，一个人也可以很享受
朋友说那是悲哀, 而我认为那是生活的一部份
叫我 loneranger 吧!
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喜欢一个人静静的呆在厅里看书面对着高速公路
喜欢一个人坐在房里闭上眼睛听着我最爱的音乐
喜欢一个人在不用工作的早上来杯我最爱的热可可
一个人并不寂寞，一个人可以很自由
一个人并不孤单，一个人也可以很享受
朋友说那是悲哀, 而我认为那是生活的一部份
叫我 loneranger 吧!
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Saturday, July 5, 2008
Death
Dear stranger,
You and I are strangers that never come across to each other. You never know my existence and I never know yours till I overheard about your news.
I am not sure why but somehow the news about you do touch the deep emotion of mine.
Forgive me that I have done some research little things about you.
You looks happy, you looks young, you looks energetic, you looks confidence! Life are just too short for someone like you who appreciate the value of life, treasure the nature and cherish buddies that came in to your life.
It showed that your last login was 2 days ago. I was thinking how would you feel if you were ever know that will be your last time to login and see all the precious moments in your life? How hard is it just to leave all your beloved families and buddies behind you? It just too heart broken for me just to think bout this. Is this what we called it as destiny?
Master Yoda say: Death is a natural part of life. Rejoice for those around you who transform into the force.
I pray hard that you find peace in your eternity life.
May your soul rest in peace.
From a stranger.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Insane
Call me Insane…Cause that’s who I am right now
Thats the last thing on my mind before I go sleep and thats also the first thing I think of when I open my eyes from my bed in the morning.
I am addicted, and too weak to get over it;
I am crazy, and keep on repeating it;
I am drowning, into the world of it;
I am in love, falling head over heel for it;
I am hopeless, cause I can’t think of other thing else but it;
& I am real insane cause
I AM ADDICTED, CRAZY, DROWNING, IN LOVE and HOPELESS
I just cant help myself falling into it…..
A night with wonderful vocal in Jazz ; What else more I could ask for..
That’s the most perfect combination I ever had
Cheers, For all the Jazz lovers.
Thats the last thing on my mind before I go sleep and thats also the first thing I think of when I open my eyes from my bed in the morning.
I am addicted, and too weak to get over it;
I am crazy, and keep on repeating it;
I am drowning, into the world of it;
I am in love, falling head over heel for it;
I am hopeless, cause I can’t think of other thing else but it;
& I am real insane cause
I AM ADDICTED, CRAZY, DROWNING, IN LOVE and HOPELESS
I just cant help myself falling into it…..
A night with wonderful vocal in Jazz ; What else more I could ask for..
That’s the most perfect combination I ever had
Cheers, For all the Jazz lovers.
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