Thursday, December 24, 2009

迟来的感恩

每一年的生日我都忙着庆祝,忙着礼物, 忙着朋友。
却忘了最重要的Mrs Chan。。
是她,带我来到这个花花世界,
她也用了自己的青春,给我每一个小孩应有的富有童年。
这三十年,我不是个乖女儿,也令你担心了不少。
今天三十岁的自己不会是最好,但我也自信也不会是最差的一个。
我一直都是辛福的,因为有你,有Mr Chan, 也有这一个家。
接下来的另一个三十,
我会尽量尽量不让你担心。。尽量尽量听多一点你的唠叨。。
也尽量尽量把你对我的希望当成稳重如山的命令。
今年的生日会和以往不一样因为我想打个电话亲口和你说。。Thank you, Mom

这个感恩迟了太久,也谢谢你和Mr Chan一直以来全心全意的爱我这么久

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Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Affair


Caught in terrible traffic, dragged my haggard tired body into Starbucks after long day at work.
When I pushed the door, something caught my eyes… “U” are back!

The Cherish red that I’ve missed for a while… my dearest toffee nut latte.
The Cherish red that excite me… all the colourful decoration.
The Cherish red that took my breath away… all the irresistible xmas mugs

It’s perfect at this raining evening to have a cup of toffee nut latte with the old xmas carol.

My once a year affair, Welcome back!

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是我太容易被忘记了吗?也可能是我太难被记得了吧!

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Wednesday, September 23, 2009

对不起

对不起,您们想要的我给不到。
再多的对不起也赶不掉你们的失望。。
心情是沉重也是矛盾。
对不起
对不起
对不起

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Friday, September 18, 2009

空空

我想写些东西,但是脑袋空空

我想放些相片,但是相簿空空

让我继续空空,但不好口袋空空。

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Thursday, September 17, 2009

少了你的问候,窗外的天空还是一样的蔚蓝。
少了你的陪伴,还是好好的渡过每一天。
少了你,并不是想像中的如此痛不欲生
少了你,原来只不过时一种落寞,一种空虚
算了吧! 你我只不过是彼此的一个过客。

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Tuesday, August 11, 2009

随缘

紧紧握着一直以来的坚持,看着每一个人的无奈
放手或不放手只是一字之差,但却是天渊之别。
紧握着是否能看到雨后的彩虹?
不知道但却抱着希望。。。
放下又是否能看到另一个天堂?
不清楚也不敢去想。。。
明白那一种精疲力竭,也明白那一落寞和失望
自主权不在你手中,但执行者却是你
放不放下,都让一切随缘吧。
我一点也帮不了,只能默默的替 你加油!

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Friday, August 7, 2009

过客

无意中,看到你最近的相片。。
你发福了,相中的你和家人都笑的好灿烂,好温馨。
旁人都感觉到你们的辛福你们的骄傲,
望着你和你的人生,我替你开心替你满足。
你,曾是我生命中的一个过客。。
一个彼此都不知道彼此名字的过客。。
一个只遇见几次的陌生人。。
每一次看到你,心底下总会出现一些些的涟漪,一些些的触动。
你我都是陌生人。。
我不明白,也不清楚为何每一次都有那一种难以形容的心情.。。。
那一次,我们又再度的遇见。。。而你眼神停留在我身上,我想那是唯一的一次我曾经在你眼里停留了五分钟。你那一个眼神,会一直一直留在我的回忆里。。
今世,我想我们不可能会再有任何的交集。。
下世吧,让我有个机会认识你。。或者至少一个名子。。。

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Monday, July 27, 2009

Battling



Armed ready, fighting for my own success.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Allergy

Life without milk;
Life without cheese;
Life without vitagen;
Life without chicken;
Life without fish;
Life without seafood;
Life without pork;
Life without lamb;
Life without egg;
Life without beans;

What else in life leftover for me?
Only fruits and lot of green green colours vegetables
Thanks to the irritating food allergy that force me into a detox programme.
Itchiness leaves me alone!

P/S: I wonder do I allergic towards my "love"?

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Tuesday, June 9, 2009

下午

这样的一个下午,适合一杯热可可;
这样的一个下午,不想做任何事情;
这样的一个下午,只想把自己抽空;
这样的一个下午,却是个星期二的工作下午。

醒醒吧!

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Wednesday, June 3, 2009

祝福

也许我们担心的太多,
也也许我们对你没太多的自信
担心这,又担心那。。

但深入的想,这旅行可能会是你对人生观的另一个改变。
也可能让你体验对生活的另一种态度。
当你一个人决定踏上这个旅程时,我想你也鼓起好大的勇气
我想你最想要的不是我们对你怀疑而是对你的祝福。
你有我深深的祝福,也有我对你的信心
我也相信傻人一定会有傻福!

祝你旅程,一路顺风,一路精采

p/s:别玩的连回家的时间也忘了!

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Sunday, May 10, 2009

Mrs Chan

我妈妈不是世界上最伟大的妈妈,但她是我的世界,我最伟大的妈妈。

妈妈节快乐!

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Wednesday, April 29, 2009

自由

她想要个安稳的家,他给不到
她想要个肯定的身份,他犹豫不决
她想要的他给不了。。。他最终选择离去
对不起,三个字弥补不了他对她的伤害,更不能带走这些年来藏在心底下的亏疚
听见她辛福快乐,他心底下有点点的垂丧
他,不是不爱她,但他更爱的是自己的自由
倦鸟。。可能有一天也想停止飞翔吧!

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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Grieve

Dearest,

It’s real sudden that you have passed away. Within an hour before we got to know you were unconscious and you left. You left without letting your love ones to say goodbye, kiss you for the last time. That’s heart aching but I’m sure god has his own good reason for that, to let everybody remember you as the healthy and happy you.

My regret was I don’t have the chance to know you better. Under certain circumstances, you and I got very slim chance to know each other better. I heard lot bout you, you are someone so great and yet full of patience. Your commitment towards the family, your yummylicious cooking that everyone praised of and lot of lots of it. You raised your loves one well and faith let me met this wonderful person who cherish my day and my life. I can’t promise you that I can take as good care as you to him but I will try my very best.

If there is a next life, give me a chance to let me know you better.

May your soul rest in peace.

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Friday, April 24, 2009

耀眼的大太阳,却照也照不进心底下那灰灰的感觉。

秋天,快到了吗?

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Thursday, April 2, 2009

如果可以,我想把对于你的思念变成个钟。

当我想怀恋你我曾经甜蜜的时光时,就让时钟滴答滴答慢慢的溜去。

当我想停止对于你的思念时,就把钟调个时限,当它响时只要一按,就能停止对于你无止景的思念。

真希望思念可以如此容易操控。

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"Forever"


"When forever is just a word, without meaning; the pain lasts nearly that long."

Do you feel the pain as much as she does?

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惆怅

浅浅的眠,深深的惆

赶也赶不走的怅。

唤也唤不回的睡意

今夜,就让我沉淀下去吧。。。

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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

4015

4015 days, I’ve walked through all these ways.
4015 days, I’ve survived by myself.
4015 days, I celebrate with my success I have achieved.

I am proud of myself that I manage to make it till this far.

Happy 11th anniversary!

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Thursday, March 19, 2009

中国船

每一次 Mr & Mrs Chan, 来找我们时,都是大行李,小行李。把我小小辆的车都挤的满满的。也让两个老人家拿的喘不过气来。

我们常说中国船又来了!! 看看Mrs Chan 又带来了什么。 开玩笑这个中国船可真是包罗万有,包含着满满 Mr & Mrs Chan 对我们的爱与疼。

有几道煮好了我们最爱的菜,只要热一热就能享受Mrs Chan 的拿手好菜。

有鱼也有虾,鱼切了一片片,虾也剥了壳,连酱料也弄便。只要退冰就可以简简单单的享受家乡新鲜的海鲜。

有Mrs Chan 亲手做的kaya 和包。我们可以享受简单又健康的早餐。

Mrs Chan 的拿手打包是 kampong 蛋。每一次来Mrs Chan 可以拿 40-50 粒蛋。 拿的关口kastam 全都认识Mrs Chan 。看到Mrs Chan都会问同样的问题 : “Aunty,pergi tengok anak lagi?” Mrs Chan很用心的把一粒粒蛋包起来以免蛋打破。

Mr Chan 每次都骂Mrs Chan 太疼孩子,但我们都知道Mr Chan 对于中国船也有好大的功劳。带Mrs Chan 去巴刹,帮忙打包行李,出钱又出力。

我们常叫Mr & Mrs Chan 不要麻烦。轻轻轻松的来放个假,不是好了吗? 但 Mrs Chan 说不要浪费那30kg leh, 可以弄好多的东西给你们吃。不知好气还是好笑。Mrs Chan每一次把自己累跨了,手也弄的粗粗的也坚持带给我们中国船。

大大的中国船,载的都是浓浓的疼爱。。Mr & Mrs Chan 给于我们的幸福一直,一直都在我们的心底下。
下个礼拜Mr & Mrs Chan又来了,开始期待中国船又载了些什么。

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Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Alcohol

Jack Daniel’s with coke,
My first glass of drink it also my very first experience to the world of liquor. I was curious why people love it so much and it doesn’t taste good at all.

Vodka,
Period in my life where I was pretty depressed. Bought myself a bottle of vodka, and trying to expose the different way of drinking. Mix it with lemon, soda and even orange juice. I learned a new drink - "Lemon drop". Result of this, no more Vodka in my life since then.

Chivas with coke,
The drink that buddies and I used to drink whenever we went to club. Almost every weekend and almost 2 bottles each week, just to help her went through her broke off.

Kilkenny,
One of my favorite drink. It is the booster for my hectic work. Distress myself from the never ending stressful due dates. Happy hour always perfect with pints of Kilkenny. Therefore Happy hour always ended up too happy for me.

Stout,
Black color full pint of Guinness, indulge me with its bitterness and creaminess. Just loving it.

Plump liqueur,
Sweet. My favorite companion when I feel like a small drink back home. Liqueur that serves on the rock definitely helps to chase all the gloominess away and long night of sweet dreams. Sometimes it’s also a good companion when I need to work through the weekend.

Single Malt Whiskey,
Smooth, along the years where we all grow older. This is one of the best companions when hanging out with my girls. Sip and taste the smoothness of the whiskey while having the girly chat whole night.

Champagne,
Always a happy occasion for champagne. The beautiful golden colors with all the sparkling bubbles I always drowning fast into it.

Wine,
Goes perfectly well with good vocal and music. A bottle of wine, a good vocal as background and group of friends who appreciate the same music as I am. What else I could ask for more?

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Tuesday, February 17, 2009

幸福

为什么总把幸福复杂化?
为什么总把幸福戏剧化?
为什么总把幸福推出门外?
为什么总把幸福, 弄的身边人焦悴?

幸福可以是个微笑.
幸福可以是个拥抱.
幸福可以是个眼神,一句话.
幸福可以是无价, 也可以是天价
无论是什么价都是自己对于幸福的定意

我想是时候放开手,把复杂化变的简单化,把戏剧化变的真实化,

把一直都在身边的幸福握的紧紧的.

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Thursday, February 12, 2009

从来不曾关心眼线有多深,有多浅。
最近总于明白了,
深- 可以埋藏了很多的情绪。
浅- 容易泄漏了不想人知的情绪。

讨厌眼浅的眼线,把辛苦武装起来的一道墙不堪一击。
从来不知眼泪的威力是如此震憾。
不喜欢这样的软弱,这样的无头绪。

2009,的新年愿望。。。
变变变! 变成个bionic woman!

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Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Greatest

I’m always glad for all the great people around me.
They are great as in too great!
I have place to turn to when I just feels like walking away
I have ears to listen all my grumbles
I have eyes to watch me from mistakes
I have shoulder that always for me to cry or perhaps lend on
I have hug that usually calm me down.
I have you all who always accept me as who I am.
I might not be a perfect one but somehow the presences of you all do make me a better one.

Cheers!

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