十七岁的我，
在发什么梦？
十七岁的我，
在幻什么想？
十七岁的我，
懂什么是人生？
十七岁的我，
会做什么决定？
十七岁的我，
会怎样去面对？
十七岁的我，二十岁的我，三十岁的我。。。
现在三十岁的我也不知如何去解决, 去面对.
更何况十七岁的你。
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舒芙礼
12 years ago
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
X'mas
Recently I had a chat with friend of mine bout Christmas gift. An old memory flashed out reminded me of my first Christmas gift. This memory put on smile and felt the warm deep down in my heart.
I basically grew up in a traditional Chinese family. Christmas never a celebration or anything fancy for us. All started from my new neighbor. Their two little girls are about the age of me and my little brother. We became close friends, those childhood kind of buddies.
Christmas was on the way, both of them were happily talking bout the Christmas gifts that they wish for. My brother and I got no idea how, but obviously both of us also wanted a Christmas gifts so much. Two little girls told us to put a sock at our bed and we surely get a present that we wish for the next morning. I was doubted during that time. How can that possible happen? Santa only exit in shopping mall how can he know what I want and where do I live?
On the Christmas eve, my brother and I put our dad old sock nearby the bed and headed off to sleep anxiously. We told each other we must stay awake to see how Santa able to come in or is it really he will bring us gift. Of course at that time, we easily fall asleep in less than 5 minutes. The next morning when we opened our eyes, there’s really a gift laid beside the socks!! We were thrilled and excited all about it! I got my dream Chinese chess set. We keep on asking Mr & Mrs Chan how the Santa able came in the house. How the Santa know what I want? Can Santa understand Chinese? Mr & Mrs Chan just ignored us and keep on smiling.
On the Christmas night itself, me and my brother got curious again whether Santa will come and visit us again? So that night we decided to put the socks up again. Two of us tried very hard to stay awake and of course fall asleep soon after that. Early the next morning, we found a big surprise. An ang pow for both us. That do looks weird! But as a kid we don’t bother that much and continue to question Mr & Mrs Chan with why? How? What?
After so many years, I almost forgotten bout this till recently. Its one of the sweetest thing Mr & Mrs Chan ever did for us. Both of them don’t want to see us disappointed and try their best to fulfill our wish. Christmas another week to go and of course Christmas gifts will be ready for those special ones.
Merry Christmas!
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I basically grew up in a traditional Chinese family. Christmas never a celebration or anything fancy for us. All started from my new neighbor. Their two little girls are about the age of me and my little brother. We became close friends, those childhood kind of buddies.
Christmas was on the way, both of them were happily talking bout the Christmas gifts that they wish for. My brother and I got no idea how, but obviously both of us also wanted a Christmas gifts so much. Two little girls told us to put a sock at our bed and we surely get a present that we wish for the next morning. I was doubted during that time. How can that possible happen? Santa only exit in shopping mall how can he know what I want and where do I live?
On the Christmas eve, my brother and I put our dad old sock nearby the bed and headed off to sleep anxiously. We told each other we must stay awake to see how Santa able to come in or is it really he will bring us gift. Of course at that time, we easily fall asleep in less than 5 minutes. The next morning when we opened our eyes, there’s really a gift laid beside the socks!! We were thrilled and excited all about it! I got my dream Chinese chess set. We keep on asking Mr & Mrs Chan how the Santa able came in the house. How the Santa know what I want? Can Santa understand Chinese? Mr & Mrs Chan just ignored us and keep on smiling.
On the Christmas night itself, me and my brother got curious again whether Santa will come and visit us again? So that night we decided to put the socks up again. Two of us tried very hard to stay awake and of course fall asleep soon after that. Early the next morning, we found a big surprise. An ang pow for both us. That do looks weird! But as a kid we don’t bother that much and continue to question Mr & Mrs Chan with why? How? What?
After so many years, I almost forgotten bout this till recently. Its one of the sweetest thing Mr & Mrs Chan ever did for us. Both of them don’t want to see us disappointed and try their best to fulfill our wish. Christmas another week to go and of course Christmas gifts will be ready for those special ones.
Merry Christmas!
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Friday, December 5, 2008
Disappointment
Boy n girl got into fight again.
This is the numerous times where girl just get too disappointed with boy.
Girl keep on asking herself is she asking too much? Is she just being paranoid with small matters like this? Or is she just not important at all?
Few times where girl fall sick. She waited for boy’s call to check whether she is feeling better, but boy just never did. Boy will just continue the normal chat and eventually when girl brought it up and boy always came up with the excuse that he just about to ask her bout it. Somehow, girl clearly knew that he once again forget bout her sick. At that point of time, girl just feels disappointed.
Few occasions where girl went out till late at night. She hoping that boy will call to check whether she reaches home safely but boy just never does. When she finally call and ask, boy always said he is going to call. Again the girl feels no matter what boy said everything just seems doesn’t matter anymore. There are few times where girl just don’t call at all and boy also doesn’t bother to call. That night she slept herself with all the miserable feelings.
Deep down in girl’s heart it always filled up with disappointment. Girl always wondered why boy always remembered others safety but just not her. Girl do wonder sometimes, if one day something really happen to her then only boy will remember bout her? But by that time..it always too late. No matter how much of apologies, how much of sorry.. will never bring things back to the way it used to be.
More and more of disappointments do create lot of doubts. How much do boy really love girl? Is girl not important at all? Boy, don’t blame on girl why is she always don’t feel secure. Cause small things like that do somehow show the importance of someone in the loved one’s heart. When boy forgot just said forgot, cause with all the unnecessary explain it also cannot take away the disappointment.
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This is the numerous times where girl just get too disappointed with boy.
Girl keep on asking herself is she asking too much? Is she just being paranoid with small matters like this? Or is she just not important at all?
Few times where girl fall sick. She waited for boy’s call to check whether she is feeling better, but boy just never did. Boy will just continue the normal chat and eventually when girl brought it up and boy always came up with the excuse that he just about to ask her bout it. Somehow, girl clearly knew that he once again forget bout her sick. At that point of time, girl just feels disappointed.
Few occasions where girl went out till late at night. She hoping that boy will call to check whether she reaches home safely but boy just never does. When she finally call and ask, boy always said he is going to call. Again the girl feels no matter what boy said everything just seems doesn’t matter anymore. There are few times where girl just don’t call at all and boy also doesn’t bother to call. That night she slept herself with all the miserable feelings.
Deep down in girl’s heart it always filled up with disappointment. Girl always wondered why boy always remembered others safety but just not her. Girl do wonder sometimes, if one day something really happen to her then only boy will remember bout her? But by that time..it always too late. No matter how much of apologies, how much of sorry.. will never bring things back to the way it used to be.
More and more of disappointments do create lot of doubts. How much do boy really love girl? Is girl not important at all? Boy, don’t blame on girl why is she always don’t feel secure. Cause small things like that do somehow show the importance of someone in the loved one’s heart. When boy forgot just said forgot, cause with all the unnecessary explain it also cannot take away the disappointment.
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